Monday, October 19, 2009

Maagang Pamasko ni Santa Klaws

2006 - Naalala ko pa nung sa una kong trabaho, nagbalak akong magresign bigla kasi may job interview ako as Spanish Analyst sa isang international organization. Sobra akong na excite at sa awa ng Diyos.. hindi ako natanggap kasi kailangan pala ng MALE sa team nila kasi daw na over power na ng FEMALE. LABO LANG E! Simula non, lalong tumibay ang pangangarap ko na makapasok sa United Nations. Oo, United Nations! Hindi naman siguro masama mangarap diba?

Kalagitnaan ng 2008, sa kainitan ng aking ulo, may nabasa akong story sa email. "Worth the Wait" ung title. Tungkol yun sa isang padre de pamilya na naubusan ng pasensya sa kakahintay magkatrabaho. Natuto na siyang magalit sa mundo at maging pabigat sa kanyang pamilya. Pero sa huli, hindi parin sakanya nagtampo ang Diyos. Binigay parin sakanya ang matagal na niyang hiniling na trabaho. Pagkatapos ko yun mabasa, hindi na yun nawala sa isip ko. Sabi ko sa sarili ko, baka nga sa akin din, may plano din si Lord.

Pero sa paglipas ng panahon, wala pa rin akong trabaho. Nakalimutan ko na rin ang salitang pasensya. Hindi ko naiwasan ikumpara madalas ang sarili ko sa iba. Bakit sila may kwenta ako wala? Kung nasubaybayan niyo ang mga blogs ko, puro “emo” ang laman ng storya ko dahil nauubusan na ko ng pag-asa. Nawalan narin ako ng gana maghanap ng trabaho dahil masyado narin ata ako nawili maging bum (estudyanteng walang trabaho). Hingi ng allowance sa parents para pambisyo. Masaya? Oo Masaya.. pero nakakahiya. Kung siguro wala lang akong pakiramdam, hindi siguro sasagi ang salitang “hiya” sa isip ko. E pero ganon e…….

Nagdasal ako, wala. Pakiramdam ko hindi sakin nakikinig si Lord kasi hindi parin ako natatanggap sa kahit anong trabaho. Sinisi ko na ang recession (no choice). Bakit ba kasi wrong timing ang pagiging jobless ko? Tumayming pa sa recession edi lalo ako nahirapan maghanap ng trabaho. ECHOS! Nasanay na rin ata ako kahit papano sa rejection kasi lagi nalang ako hindi natatanggap. Wala rin naman napapala yung pagmamasters ko. Feeling ko pa nga, naging hadlang pa yun sa paghahanap ko ng trabaho e.

Pero hindi, buti nalang naisalba ko ang sarili ko sa pagkahibang. Natuto ako magdasal ng tama. May naging favorite pa nga akong kanta e. Yung “While I’m Wating” by John Waller

I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait

I will move ahead, bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience

While I'm waiting
I will serve You
While I'm waiting
I will worship
While I'm waiting
I will not faint
I'll be running the race
Even while I wait

I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am peaceful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it's not easy
But faithfully, I will wait
Yes, I will wait

I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting on You, Lord

Sabi sa kanta, hindi lang basta-basta ang paghihintay. while we're waiting on God is to not just wait but to actively wait. Serve, worship and be faithful with what you have, where you are... even while (you) wait.

Paulit ulit ko tong pinapakinggan lalo na kapag nawawala na naman ang pasensya ko sa buhay. Oo na ang baduy ko na, pero kung hindi ako naghintay, hindi ako matututo maghintay ng tama. Oo naiinip ako minsan, tao lang ako e. Pero hanggat makakaya ko, iniiwasan kong mag alburoto.

Friday - Exam palang nagdugo na ilong ko sa mga tanong. Buti nalang sa computer sasagutan yung questions, atleast bawas hasel. Eto na ang interview, hindi na ko nahiya, kung pwede ko lang ikwento ang mga pinagdaanan ko ginawa ko na. E ang kaso.. hindi. Ang nasabi ko lang.. “you know what, this is my dream job.” *sabay ngiti* Pagtapos ng ilang araw, nakatanggap ako ng mala radio-contest-call. Oo napatalon ako sabay iyak. AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Halos ilang taon din akong nag-imagine. Sa tinagal-tagal kong naghintay, eto pala ang plano sa akin ni Lord. Nagalit na ko’t lahat, hindi parin pala Siya nagtampo sa akin. Salamat sa hindi pagtanggap sa akin sa bangko. Salamat sa hindi pagtanggap sa akin sa isang Eskwelahan. Salamat. Kasi kung hindi dahil sa inyo, hindi ako magiging matatag sa kakahintay na makapagtrabaho sa UN.

Oo tsong, sa United Nations!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Saturday, October 03, 2009

Bagyong Ondoy

Ang ngiti na tagal ko nang hindi nakita, ang iyak sa tuwa na tagal ko nang hindi narinig, namiss ko yun, ngayon ko lang ulit nabalikan.
Pagkatapos ng halos limang taon, ngayon lang ako ulit nakatulong ng ganito. Tagal kong hinintay ang ganitong pagkakataon, kung hindi pa dumating si Ondoy, hindi na mauulit ang pag volunteer ko. Sige na nga, salamat narin Ondoy. Haha
Sabi ng mga hindi nakakaintindi, wala naman daw naidudulot na matino yun sa akin. Bakit daw kailangan ko pa gawin yun? Ang sagot ko.. E BAKIT BA! E SA DUN AKO MASAYA E. LANG PAKELAMANAN!
Hindi ko alam kung anong puso ang meron ang isang volunteer. Sabi sa Pearl Harbor movie "there is no stronger that the heart of a volunteer. Sabi ko naman, "ok thanks!" ahahahaha hindi loko lang. Para sa mga nagkukusang loob na gumawa ng mabuti sa ibang tao, para sa mga taong hindi humihingi ng kapalit, ang titibay niyo din noh! Kasi walang humpay ang pagpapagod niyo para sa iba.
Lahat nga naman ng pangyayari may dahilan. Kasi kung hindi kay Ondoy, hindi magpapanic ang mga tao sa Luzon. Hindi mahuhukay sa baol ang salitang "bayanihan". Dahil kung tutuusin, sa dinami-daming disaster ang nangyari sa pinas, lahat halos sa mga probinsya bumagsak noon. Asan na ang politician, artista at libo-libong volunteers? Ayun, steady lang. Sorry pero totoo naman diba?! Na-bother siguro si Lord, sabi Niya kailangan pa ng matinding pampagising para sa atin. KABOOM! September 26.. bumaha ng bonggang-bongga sa Luzon. Naglanguyan at naglutangan ang mga Manilenyo sa swimming pool na kulay brown at black. State of calamity sabi ni PGMA, tumigil ang mundo ng mga gimikero at gimikera. Natuto magdasal ng mahaba ang mga tao, natuto mag status sa Facebook na hindi kalokohan, natuto mag-alala sa kapwa. Eto na ba toh Lord?
Sabi ni Lord, "oo.. NICE NOH?!"

Thursday, August 06, 2009

He's Just Not That Into You movie quotes

Cut your losses and don't waste your time . Why stay in some weird dating limbo when you can move on to what will surely be better territory? Don't want to hear it? Fine. Here's the answer you're looking for, "Hang in there, baby. He's not the loser everybody's telling you he is. If you wait and keep your mouth shut and call at exactly the right time and anticipate his moods and have no expectations about communication or your own sexual needs, you can have him!" But please don't be surprised if he dumps you or continues to drag you through a completely unsatisfying relationship.

He is a man made up entirely of your excuses. And the minute you stop making excuses for him, he will completely disappear from your life.

Men, for the most part, like to pursue women. We (men) like not knowing if we can catch you. We feel rewarded when we do.

Don't let the "honeys" and the "babys" fool you. His sweet nothings are exactly that. They are much easier to say than "I'm just not that into you." Remember, actions speak louder than, "There's no cell reception where I am right now."

Calling when you say you're going to call is the very first brick in the house you are building of love and trust. If he can't lay this one stupid brick down, you ain't never gonna have a house, baby. And it's cold outside.

He will always be able to play the "friend" card on you. He only has to be responsible for the expectations of a friend, rather than the the far greater expectations of a boyfriend. He's got the ultimate situation: a great friend with all the benefits of a girlfriend, whom he can see or not see whenever he wants to. He may be one of your closest friends, but I'm sorry to say ... as a boyfriend, he's just not that into you.

Beware of the word "friend". It can often be used by men or the women that love them to excuse the most unfriendly behavior. Personally, when I'm picking friends, I like the ones who don't make me cry myself to sleep.

I don't want to be "sort of dating" someone. I don't want to be "kinda hanging out" with someone. I don't want to spend a lot of energy suppressing my feelings so I appear uninvolved. I want to be involved. I want to be sleeping with someone I know I'll see again because they've already demonstarted to me that they're trustworthy and honorable -- and into me.

You can't blame a guy for having feelings. You love someone, you break up, you still have feeling. Thank God for that really. But having feelings don't mean you have to have sex.

Every man you have ever dated who has said he doesn't want to get married or doesn't believe in marriage, or has "issues" with marriage, will ... rest assured ... someday be married. It just will never be with you.

Everyone wants to be loved and needed, particularly by the person who just broke up with us. I understand. What could be better than hearing from the man who just told you he didn't want you in his life anymore ... his sad, wistful, "I miss you so much" voice on the other end of the phone? It's validating. It's exciting. It's irresistible. But resist you must.

My friends all say I should stop talking to him, but I think he misses me, and I like that. I miss him. I feel if I stay in touch with him, it will remind him of how great I am, and eventually he will realize that we should be together again.

A man who wants to make a relationship work will move mountains to keep the woman he loves. If he's not calling you to tell you he loves you and wants you back, it should only be because he's showing up at your new residence to do it in person ... if he's not doing any of that, he may love you, he may miss you, but ultimately he's just not that into you. Stop taking his calls and let him know what it's like to live without you.

Don't be flattered that he misses you. He should miss you. You're deeply missable. However, he's still the same person who just broke up with you. Remember, the only reason he can miss you is because he's choosing, every day, not to be with you.

I was seeing a guy for about a month. He broke up with me, saying that he didn't feel like it could be something serious. I understood and took it well. He wanted to know if we could still hang out as friends. I said sure. Now we get together and go out and then come back to his place and have sex, just like we did before. (But now, we're "broken up.") He's really, really cute and I love having sex with him. I also think he must like me if he can't stop being around me. And I think it's kinda cool -- all pressure's off and we're having a great time together. I've decided that I think it's fine and I'm not going to call his attention for the fact that we're actually dating. Except for the fact that we broke up.

This guy is brilliant. He goes out with you, dates you, breaks up with you, then continues to sleep with you, which basically absolves him of all responsibility toward your feelings. After all, you're not going out anymore. It's genius! It's diabolical! He should be writing a book! In fact, I bet this guy could get his own little cult going if he wanted to. And let me guess, you'd be happy to sign up for that as well. For the record, this guy doesn't "like you so much that he can't stop being around you." Because here's what guys don't do if they can't live without you: they don't break up with you. This guy is seriously not into you, it's crazy. The only way you're going to figure out how into you you are ... is how fast you get rid of him.

It's very tempting when you really want to be with someone to settle for much, much less -- even a vague pathetic facsimile of less -- than you would have ever imagined. Remember always what you set out to get and please don't settle for less. These guys exist because there are a lot of women out there who allow them to.

Hey girl. Put down the penis, put your clothes back on, and go directly to your best friend's house. Do not find an excuse to stay. Do not think that because of all the crazy hotness of it all, it now means that you're meant to be together. Yes, break up sex does seem like a good idea, because hey, it's nice to have sex with someone you have these dramatic feelings about. It makes it all, well, dramatic. But now you know. It confuses everything and makes you separate sex and emotions. So now you don't ever have to make that mistake again. Got it? He's into the very-bad-idea-that-masquerades-as-a-good-idea, breakup sex. Over and out.

Don't underestimate the power of sex, even with someone you've been doing it with for a very long time. Especially with someone you've been doing it with for a very long time. Breaking up means not seeing them again, which also implies not seeing them naked again. It might be tempting to forget this pearl of wisdom, but just remember, it's still called breakup sex. No one has yet to rename it oh-my-god-the-sex-was-so-good-we-got-back-together-again-and-lived-happily-ever-after sex.

He's sniffing for something better, and when he doesn't find it, he gets lonely and comes "home." It's not that he's so into you. It's that he's so not into being alone. Don't give him the chance to break up with you for the fourth time. (Even the idea of it sounds beneath you, doesn't it?) Reset your breakup maximum to one and move on.

Deciding to get back together with someone is a complicated and difficult decision. Just remember that the person you are getting back together with is the same person who, not long before, looked you in your beautiful face, took full stock of you and all your qualities, and told you that he was no longer in need of your company.

Don't confuse being classy with being a doormat. Classy is walking away with your head held high, graciously, and with all dignity. Being a doormat is offering to drive him to the dentist for his root canal.

Breakups, I've heard, are supposed to be just that. Breaks. Hard, clean breaks. No talking, no seeing, no touching ... keep your hands to yourself. The relationship is over. Half the people I know move after a huge breakup, and frankly that makes perfect sense to me. You're not supposed to sleep with the guy who just broke your heart a week ago. Fine. Next time I'm in this situation I'll cry. Stay in bed and wail. Go to the gym if I can. Call all my friends and burden them with my misery. Sleep too much. Cry some more. See my therapist more often. Get a puppy. Do whatever I have to so eventually I can move on.

Breakup sex still means you're broken up.

Cut him off. Let him miss you.

He doesn't need to be reminded that you're great.

There's a guy out there who's going to be really happy that you didn't get back together with your crappy ex-boyfriend.

The reason it's so painful when someone disappears is you have to face the fact that the person you loved had probably left you a long time before he grabbed his coat and scrammed. The part part is realizing that he was lying to you, in some way, before the moment of vanishing.

Don't give him the chance to reject you again.

No matter how powerful and real your feelings may be for someone, if that person cannot fully and honestly return them and therefore actively love you back, these feelings mean nothing.

Being lonely ... being alone ... for many people ... sucks. I get it, I get it, I get it. But still I have to say that yes, my belief is that being with somebody who makes you feel shitty or doesn't honor the person you are is worse.

Life is hard enough as it is without choosing someone difficult to share it with.

You deserve to be with someone who is nice to you all the time.

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“A girl will never forget the first boy she ever likes.”

“Why did you do that? – Because you smell like a dog pooh”

“Connie, do you know why that little boy did those things? Because he likes you.”

“We are all programmed to believe that if a guy acts like a total jerk that means he likes you.”

“How stupid is that a girl has to wait for a guy’s call anyway, right?”

“He’s totally gonna call.”

“If a guy treats you like he doesn’t give a s— it’s because he doesn’t give a s—.”

“An excuse is a polite rejection. Men are not afraid of “ruining the friendship.”

“Don’t get tricked into asking him out. If he likes you, he’ll do the asking.”

“If you can find him, then he can find you. If he wants to find you, he will.”

“Just because you like to lead doesn’t mean he wants to dance. Some traditions are born of nature and last through time for a reason.”

“Hey, let’s meet at so-and-so’s party/any bar/friend’s house” is not a date.

“Men don’t forget how much they like you. So put down the phone.”

“You are good enough to be asked out.”

“I just need you to stop being nice to me unless you gonna marry me.”

“Am I… will I be Al Pacino in this scenario?”

“Maybe he lost my number or is out of town or got hit by a cab- Or maybe he is not interested in seeing you again?”

“MySpace is the new booty call”

“What if you meet the love of your life? Are you suppose to let that pass you by?”

“I had this guy leave me a voice mail at work, so I called him at home, and then he emailed me to my BlackBerry, and so I texted to his cell, and now you just have to go around checking all these different portals just to get rejected by seven different technologies. It’s exhausting.”

“So I also have a magical name – its Brother Pheonix East Horse”

Tuesday, June 09, 2009

Dilemma ko (Serious Edition)

Isa sa mga hindi matapos-tapos na isyu sa mga ka edaran ko ngayon ay ang topic na tungkol sa karera. Hindi karera ng kabayo, karera ng buhay. Career. Hindi rin ito matapos-tapos na pagusapan sa bahay namin dahil hindi nga naman ako bumabata pa.

Walang kapaguran ang mga magulang ko sa pagtutulak sakin na mag-ibang bansa. Hindi ko naman daw poproblemahin ang pamasahe at visa dahil sinuwerte naman ako sa parehong bagay. Pwera nalang sa 2 bagay na kakalabanin ko ng bonggang-bongga. Ang pride at ang lungkot. Ito ang mga bagay na matagal ng humahadlang sa napakaling pangarap nila para sa akin. Hindi ko alam kung paano ko ito tatalunin. Hindi naman ito napagaaralan sa eskwelahan, sa masteral o sa internet. Kailangan dito malupit na pagiisip, paguunawa at pag tanggap ng bagay-bagay.. na hindi lahat nakukuha ng madalian, dahil sa totoo lang, walang pangarap na madali maabot. Hindi ganon ka-simple. Hindi.

Ngayon, pagkatapos ng matagal-tagal na pananahimik ng magulo kong utak.. muli na naman akong binulabog nito kani-kanina lang. May nag o-offer sa akin ng opportunity abroad. Hindi ito ang trabahong pinapangarap ko, hindi ito ang trabahong gusto ko pagtapos ko ng kolehiyo, hindi ito ang trabahong nasa listahan ko. Pero ito ang trabahong magdadala sa akin papunta sa matagal ng pangarap ng magulang ko. Ang pagkakaroon ng matiwasay na kinabukasan.. At sino bang ayaw magkaroon ng ganon diba? SHET ANG LALIM NON.

Hindi ko tuloy alam kung ano ang pipiliin ko. Oo, madali mag advice, pero mahirap gawin diba? Hindi ko alam kung pipiliin ko bang makipagsapalaran sa ibang lugar at kumita ng limpak-limpak na pera o mananatili na lang muna ako dito sa atin at maghintay ng.............. wala? Kasi sa totoo lang, ang mga bagay na gusto ko hindi ko naman makuha dito e. Edi mas mabuti pang subukan ko na lang ang ibang landas. Kakayanin ko kayang babaan ang matagal ko nang pinapabongga na PRIDE para maging successful ako in the future? o hindi? Tama bang kunin ko na ang opportunity na ito at tanggapin ko na lang ang mga hirap na maaari kong maranasan pagdating ng panahon o hindi?

Kailangan ko ng "proper guidance" sabi ko nga sa nanay ko. Hindi biro ang dilemma ko, seryoso ako. Sa pagkakataong ito, swak parin ba ang kasabihang: "ITS NOW OR NEVER" ?

Thursday, April 02, 2009

boka101

Kung kasama ka sa circle of friends ko, o ikaw ay kabilang sa mga lagi kong kadikit, o di kaya'y ikaw ay nabubuhay sa henerasyon ko, malamang alam mo ang mga ito:

1) Gudjab - pagpupuri sa isang tao kapag siya ay may nagawang tama
ex. B: hindi ako aalis tonight promise
G: ok gudjab!

2) Walang future - walang direksyon ang buhay / plano
ex. G: anong oras na wala ka pa?
B: teka lang di ako makaalis
G: wala kang future!

3) Balaka - kapag wala ka nang masabi sa kausap mo
ex. B: puntahan kita jan, libre moko
G: balaka

4) Korekted by - kapag ikaw ay sumasang-ayon sa usapan
ex. B: so break na tayo?
G: korekted by!

5) Babayu - paalam
ex. B: sige ingat ka..
G: babayu!

6) Thanks for the memories - kadugtong ng BABAYU
ex. B: Thanks for the memories..
G: ok babayu!

7) Kaboom - kapag malakas ang dating ng nakita mo
ex. B1: anlaki non a'
B2: oo pare.. KABOOM!

8) Acheche - kapag ikaw ay kinikilig sa crush mo
ex. G1: huy girl, cute non a.. sabay kayo kumain?
G2: ugh. oo..
G1: acheche!

9) Bye guys - kapag wala ka nang pag-asa
ex. B1: pare nahihirapan na ko sa trabaho ko, lagi na lang akong naghihingalo sa deadline
B2: un lang pare.. bye guys.

10) Umartih - kapag ikaw ang nagpapa cute kahit di naman cute
ex. G1: ui! nice dress..
G2: korekted by
G1: umartih!

11) Congrat - kapag ikaw ay nagbibigay pugay sa ISANG tao. walang S kasi ISA lang siya e.
ex. B: nakapasa ako sa exam ko! woohooo!
G: nice... congrat!

12) Nar - tawag sa ISANG nurse
ex. G: nagloloko yung oxygen! tumawag ka ng Nar!!!!!

13) Vest - bestfriend
ex. G: hi vest anong ginagawa mo?

14) I miss ur lav - i miss you
ex. G: tagal na nating hindi nagkikita..
B: onga e, i miss ur lav

15) Sugalord - mahilig magsugal
ex. B1: panalo ka na naman? sugalord ka talaga!
B2: shempre..

16) Pasyal - gumala sa kung saan-saan
ex. G1: may ginagawa ka ba?
G2: wala naman, tara pasyal tayo

17) Bebi - baby
ex. G1: bakit wala pa siya dito?
G2: nag-aalaga pa ng bebi e..

18) Sambady's blashing - kapag may kinikilig dahil sa crush
ex. G1: uiii tinext niya ko!!
G2: sambady's blashing.. ahahaha

19) Shever - ka love life
ex. G1: sino yang nasa picture?
G2: ah, shever ko.. hihihi

20) Nice noh? - kapag maganda ang ginagawa mo o bagay na nakikita mo
ex. G1: galing mo kumanta a.. gudjab!
B: salamat
G2: nice noh?

21) Ta-moody - wag kang bastos. ang ibig sabihin nito wala ka sa mood.
ex. B: bakit moko binagsakan ng telepono?
G: e naiirita ako e..
B: ta-moody! ta-moody!

22) Beki - bakla
ex. G1: sino gumupit sayo?
G2: beki

23) Anong ginagawa mo - sinasabi ito pag bored ka at gusto mo ng kausap
ex. G1: wala ko magawa, ano ginagawa mo?
G2: wala din..

24) Majuba - mataba
ex. B: alin dun ung lagi mong kausap sa ym?
G: yun o.. ung majuba!

25) TEH - tawag sa babae
ex. G1: TEH magbihis ka na..
G2: o-key

26) Hilig mo e! - kapag ito ang lagi mong ginagawa. madalas ito sabihin kung ikaw ay mang-aasar.
ex. B1: sakit ng ulo ko, dami ko nainom kagabi. ayoko naaa
B2: ayos yan.. HILIG MO E!

Wednesday, April 01, 2009

MYSELF.

from this website : http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Kapamilya.

Kung uungkatin lahat ng alaala ko mula pagkabata, walang kaduda-duda na mas malapit ako sa mga kaibigan ko kesa sa pamilya. Tanungin man ako ng kahit sino ngayon, yoon pa din ang isasagot ko. Tuwing magpaparinig ang mga nakatatanda na bigyang halaga ang pamilya kesa sa mga kaibigan.. isa ako sa mga natatamaan ng bato sa langit.

Sabi ko sa sarili ko noon, dadating din ang panahon na matututo akong magpahalaga ng kapamilya. Hindi ko alam kung kailan pero sigurado akong gagawa ng paraan si Superfriend para matutunan ko ang importansya nila. Hindi ako nagkamali, gumawa nga Siya ng paraan...

Wala akong masyadong pakealam nang marinig ko ang balita. Kasi hindi ko ito sineryoso. Sabi ko pa nga kay mommy... "ayos lang yon. wag na tayo pumunta doon.." Para sa akin kasi, kung hindi naman seryoso ang nangyari, pwede naman sigurong ipagpabukas na lang ang pagpunta sa Antipolo.. tutal, ilang oras na lang naman non, e mag u-umaga na. Pero nasunod padin shempre ang nanay ko, tumuloy kami papuntang Antipolo..

Naaksidente si tita.

Pinakalat ko ang balita sa mga kaibigan ko. Kasi para sa akin, sila ang mga taong gusto ko laging maging "updated" sa buhay ko. Ayun, may nag-alala.. merong nangamusta.. meron ding.. wala lang. Ang mga taong pinagtuunan ko ng pansin ng matagal na panahon, ang mga taong naging impluwensya sa buhay ko.. ang mga taong akala ko na makikiramdam.. sila pala ang totoong walang pakealam. Hasel lang diba?

Ayaw ko sanang manumbat, pero bakit ganon? At kung sino pa ang hindi ko inasahan, sila pa talaga ang talagang naapektuhan.

Dati may nagsabi sa akin, huwag daw ako masyado umasa sa kaibigan.. dahil may mga panahon daw na mabibigo lang ako at mapagiiwanan. Malalaman mo daw talaga kung sino ang totoong nagmamalasakit sayo pag dumating yung panahon na sobrang nangangailangan ka ng tulong, atensyon o kung anuman. Sa paraang ito na ginawa ni Superfriend, narealize ko na ang mga taong hindi ko binigyang importansya, sila pala yung maasahan ko sa ganitong parte ng buhay ko.

Ang mga totoong kaibigan ko.
Ang pamilya, mga pinsan at mga tito, tita ko.

Hindi man maganda ang okasyong ito. Pero ito pa din ang naging daan para maging close ako sa inyo. Sa panahong ito, nagpapasalamat ako na hindi ako napagkaitan ng pamilya. Ilang beses ko man silang hindi pinagtuunan ng pansin, ilang beses ko man silang tinalikuran para sa kaibigan, hinding-hindi naman nila ako pinabayaan.

Salamat ha..




Sunday, March 08, 2009

Time Machine... sakay na!


Isa sa mga gustong kong gawin pag nasa mood ako ay ang mag reminisce. Kaya naman ganon na lang ang pag tangkilik ko ng youtube. Kasi halos lahat ng mga old school pwede kong mapanood doon. nice noh? haha

Mabalik tayo sa dati.. yung panahon na tape lang ang uso tapos teks ang pangunahing laro sa kanto ahahaha! Hindi ko napapansin ang pagtakbo ng panahon noon, wala akong pakealam.. pero ngayon, puro pagbabalik tanaw ang ginagawa ko sa lahat ng iyon. Ang kabataan days ko, wala akong iniintindi kundi ang paglalaro! Ewan ko ba kung bakit wala akong nahiligang sport hanggang sa pagtanda ko, e sobrang bibo ko sa paglalaro dati haha. Naalala ko pa dati, hirap na hirap akong mag panggap matulog sa tanghali kasi sobrang excited akong lumabas ng bahay para maglaro don sa harap ng tindahan nila Aling Nena (classic!).

Ang sarap mag reminisce. Ito na ang nakahiligan kong gawin talaga mula nang natutunan ko ang salitang "emo". Natatawa ako magisa tuwing tumitingin ako ng photo album. Buti na lang pinagtyagaan talaga ng nanay ko ang pag collect ng mga pictures ko nung bata. Naalala ko tuloy ng bonggang-bongga lahat ng katatawanan, kahihiyan at kalokohan ko nung bata pa ako. Hindi ko malaman kung pinanganak na ba akong nakakatawa o talagang nakakatawa lang talaga ahaha! Buti na lang din may Kuya ako, kasi napapakinggan ko lahat ng mga paborito niyang banda. Mula sa Wolfgang, Teeth, Yano, Eraserheads, Datus Tribe, Tropical Depression, Francis Magalona, Andrew E, Rivermaya.. hanggang sa Parokya ni Edgar. Kung siguro wala akong Kuya, edi sana hindi ako tuwang-tuwa sa concert ng Eheads kagabi diba.. Isama mo na din ang mga paborito kong kanta nina: Donna Cruz, DJ Alvaro, Prettier than Pink, Color It Red, at ang walang kamatayang Spice Girls.. ugh! Kailangan iba iba pa ang kulay ng casette tape ng Spice Girls para cool na cool ang dating. ahahahahaha!

Bentang-benta din sa akin ang Over da Bakod, Palibhasa Lalake, Analuna, Veliente at Mara Clara.. pati na rin ang Mr. Cupido at Flames sa tanghali, ang TGIS at Gimik tuwing sabado, at ang Lovingly Yours ni Helen at Ipaglaban Mo tuwing linggo. Tapos pag tuwing gabi naman, ang Gabi ng Lagim sa radyo. Takot na tako ako lagi pag naririnig ko yung tugtog ng Gabi ng Lagim, tapos yung yaya ko nagagalit na natatawa (parang baliw lang) haha! Hindi ko kinakaya ang Gabi ng Lagim.. kasi pakiramdam ko may mumu sa tabi. ahahaha balaka!

Nung bata ako, sinigurado ng mga magulang ko na hindi ako mababato sa buhay ko. Kaya naman pinasok nila ako sa iba't-ibang klase ng libangan. Ang "lessons overload" kung tawagin. Mula sa swimming.. na nasali ako sa MILO Best competition (pero hindi ako sumipot kasi wala kaming kotse papunta don sa venue), piano.. na wala akong nakuhang award o ribbon man lang, voice.. na naging klasmeyt ko c jamie baby (kumanta ng e kasi bata!), hanggang sa guitar lesson..(na wala akong natutunan talaga). Lahat ng yon sinupportahan ako ng dakila kong nanay! Kung may "Ipagpilitan Mo contest" lang.. malamang sumali at nanalo ako don! Muntikan na rin akong mag ballet.. kaso di pumayag daddy ko kasi daw nakakalaki ng muscle sa binti hehe. =) Onga pala, naisip ko din mag taekwondo noon ahahahaha! Sa part ng ito sa buhay ko, lagi kong sinasabi kay mommy na sana sinali niya rin ako sa Little Miss Philippines sa Eat Bulaga.. edi sana ngayon artista na ako! haha

Madaming-madami pa kong gusto alalahanin. Kung mabibigyan lang ako ng oportunidad magsulat ng libro tungkol sa kabataan ko, gagawin ko talaga. Ang saya kasi dati, walang problemang mabigat. Hindi ko iniintindi ang pera, ang trabaho, ang love life, at kung ano pa. Puro lang kalikutan ang alam kong gawin. Simple lang kasi dati, hindi masyado malakas ang kumpitensya ng buhay, maikli lang din ang sukatan ng salitang "kuntento". Umiiyak ako noon dahil lang sa napagalitan ako ni mommy, inaway ako ni kuya, o kaya naiwan ako ng school bus ahaha! Ngayon, ibang level na ang rason ng iyak ko. Pati ang pagkamatay ni Francis Magalona, apektado ako, naiiyak ako.

Ngayon, kung totoo lang sana ang time machine, sasakay ako talaga tapos hindi na ko babalik sa kasalukuyan. Kung pwede lang sana i-rewind, ginawa ko na talaga. Napaka dami kong namimiss. Pati mga taong sobrang tagal ko nang hindi nakikita, napapanaginipan ko na. Madaming tao ang gusto ko sanang balikan at pahalagahan. Ngayon, tuwing naiisip ko sila.. nagsisisi ako na hindi ko maintindihan kung saan nang galing yong pagsisising yon. Kung tipong pwede lang i-set yung time machine na kung hanggang saan lang pwede tumakbo ang panahon, ok na ok sana yun. Siguro, mula elementary hanggang college lang ang nasa time setting ko..tapos mamamatay na lang ako sa edad na yon. Ayoko, ayokong humarap sa future. Ok na ko sa dati. Basta.... basta lang.

Gusto kong sumakay sa time machine. Magkano kaya bayad sa ganon?






Tuesday, February 17, 2009

o mahal kong PINOY!

Marunong akong tumangkilik ng sariling atin. Nanonood ako ng mga palabas ng pinoy, indifilms at kung ano-ano pa. Gustong-gusto ko din ang mga OPM songs lalo na pag jamming sa kantahan ang labanan. Wala ring katulad ang sarap ng adobo.. kahit sino pa ang nagluto, basta MASARAP period. Bilib na bilib din ako sa mga pinoy na umaabot sa ibang bansa para ipamalas ang kanilang mga talento, pati na rin ang mga nakikipagsapalaran sa mga mas mayayaman pang bansa kesa sa atin. Pinag-aralan ko ang PILIPINAS at ang PINOY ng higit-kumulang anim na taon. Madami akong nalaman, madami akong naintindihan.

Wala akong masabi... mahal ko pa rin siya.

Isa sa mga madalas pagusapan sa PILIPINAS ay ang mga pinoy na piniling mag-ibang bansa para buhayin ang pamilya sa pinas. Ayon sa statistics ng POEA, 1,077,623 OFWs ang meron as of 2007. Hindi pa kabilang dito ang mga TNT na pasimpleng nagtatrabaho sa ibang bansa. Hindi ko lang alam kung ilang porsyento ang binagsak ng bilang ng OFWs ngayong recession.

Napanood ko sa balita na may mga nagwewelgang OFWs kahapon. Sila ang mga matinding naapektuhan ng pagbagsak ng economiya ng buong mundo. Hindi talaga ako pabor sa pagwewelga pero ika nga ng isa kong propesor nung college, kung walang mag wewelga, hindi maririnig ng gobyerno ang hinaing ng mga apektadong tao. Ok sige, bahala sila. Naiintindihan ko naman talaga ang nararamdaman nila. OFW din kasi ang nanay ko noon, ang tatay ko naman, OFW pa rin hanggang ngayon.

Nurse ang nanay ko sa Saudi dati ng sampung taon. Seaman naman ang tatay ko mula pa noong teenager siya, boss na nga siya ngayon sa barko pero shempre kabilang pa din siya sa bilang ng OFW. Lahat ng naipundar ng mga magulang ko, ang kinakain namin sa araw-araw, pati ang sweldo ng kasambahay, hanggang sa pang bayad ng internet connection ko ngayon.. lahat ng ito.. dahil sa OFW. Kahit kailan, hindi ako nagmalaki, at kahit kailan, hindi ako nagreklamo sakanila dahil alam kong mas mahirap pa din ang ginagawa nila.

Hindi pa man ako nakaranas ng pagtatrabaho sa ibang bansa, alam ko pa rin ang hirap nila lahat. Hindi ko na kailangan makita, basta alam ko lang. Aminin man natin o hindi, sila pa rin ang isa sa mga may matinding partisipasyon sa pagpapa-unlad ng Pilipinas. Wala akong pakealam sa pagiisip ng ibang tao. Ang mga tao na kung maghusga nalang ng mga OFWs e akala mo tumatae sila ng pera. Dahil para sa akin, walang karapatang magyabang ang sino mang wala namang naidulot na maganda sa buhay. Ano man ang trabaho mo, ikaw man ay isang basurero o taga linis ng aquarium sa America, o yaya ka sa HongKong, wala ka namang intensyon kung hindi ang pabutihin ang buhay ng mga mahal mo sa buhay. Nakakalungkot nga lang isipin na may mga ibang tao na hindi marunong magpasalamat sa mga OFW. Ang mga taong hindi marunong makiramdam. Sila ang mga taong WALANG PAKIALAM.

Alam ko na hindi biro ang katayuan ng ekonomiya ng buong mundo ngayon. Maraming tao ang nawalan ng trabaho, maraming tao ang hindi pa rin nagkakatrabaho, at maraming pinoy ang napauwi dito. Ang mga hindi na-swerte sa buhay na ang pera ng mga foreigners lang ang talagang bumubuhay sa kanila... pero sa kasamaang palad, nawalan sila pag-asa dahil kailangan nilang umuwi ulit dito. Hindi ko sinisisi ang gobyerno, dahil kung merong dapat sisihin, lahat naman ng tao may kasalanan. Kaya bawal magmarunong ang mga taong wala naman talagang alam ok? BAWAL.

Para sa mga sinuswerte, wag pa rin nating kalimutang makiramay sa mga minamalas. Dahil lagi nating tandaan... bilog ang mundo. Pana-panahon lang yan. hehe

Para sa mga pinoy na mang-gagawa sa ibang bansa, sa mga nagtatago para lang makasimple sa pagtatrabaho sa amerika, para mga seaman, para sa mga nurse, para sa mga domestic helper, para sa mga driver, mekaniko, carpintero, matador... para sa lahat ng OFWs... dadating din ang araw na makakaahon ang dapat maka-ahon. Wala na akong masabi................. bilib ako sa inyo!

Friday, February 13, 2009

nanaginip ako..............

Dalawang magkasunod na gabi na akong nananaginip ng karumaldumal. Kung hindi ako hinahabol ng BULL para kagatin sa ulo, hinahabol naman ako ng serial killer. Dati karaniwan lang sa akin ang mga ganong klaseng panaginip. Mula bata hanggang college ata. Tumigil na lang ito ng nagsimula na akong hindi talaga matulog ng mahimbing sa gabi.

Hindi ko alam kung bakit bumabalik ang ganitong panaginip sa akin ngayon. Sabi kasi sa internet, ang ibig sabihin daw ng "hinahabol" sa panaginip, may tinatakbukan kang problema.. basta parang ganon. Tototoo nga naman. Pero bakit ngayon? e ngayon nga, nagbabago na pananaw ko sa buhay e. Edi sana nung isang buwan pa ko binabangungot kung ganon diba?

Hindi ko na ikekwento ang panaginip ko, kasi madugo! Pero ilalagay ko na lang ang ibig sabihin ng panaginip ko (ayon sa dream interpretation online).


"I'm Being Chased"

Chase dreams is one of several common dream themes. As with most of the common dreams, they often stem from feelings of anxiety in your walking life. Running is an instinctive response to physical threats in your environment. In these dreams, you can be pursued by an attacker, an animal or an unknown figure, who wants to hurt or possibly kill you. In turn, you run, hide or try to outwit your pursuer. Your actions in the dream parallel how you respond to pressure and cope with fears, stress or various situations in your waking life. Instead of confronting the situation, you are running away and avoiding it. Ask yourself who is the one chasing you so that you can gain understanding and insight on the source of your fears and anxieties.

The pursuer or attacker who is chasing you in your dream may also represent an aspect of yourself. Your own feelings of anger, jealousy, fear, and possibly love, can assume the appearance of threatening figure. The shadowy figure can also symbolize rejected characteristics of your self. You may be projecting these feelings onto the unknown chaser. Next time you have a chase dream, turn around and confront your pursuer. Ask them why they are chasing you. Perhaps you are running away from something. What are you trying to run from?

If you are the one doing the chasing, then the dream may highlight your drive and ambition to go after something you want. Or perhaps the dream suggests that you are falling behind and having to catch up with everyone else.

Consider the distance or gap between you and your pursuer. This indicates your closeness to the issue. If the pursuer is gaining on you, then it suggests that the problem is not going to go away. The problem will surround you until you confront and address it. However, if you are able to widen the gap between your pursuer, then the problem is becoming less and less of an issue. You are able to successful distance yourself from the problem. In essence, the problem is fading away.

A more direct analysis of chase dreams is the fear of being attacked. Such dreams are more common among women than men, who may feel physically vulnerable in the urban environment. These dreams are inspired by fears of violence and sexual assault in which we are so over-exposed from the media, which magnifies such fears.


Wednesday, February 04, 2009

The 6 Men You Shouldn’t Date

from yahoo.com

In a relationship public service announcement, Jake tells us whom to avoid (himself included!).

Like all men, I’ve committed some royal screwups when it comes to women. But as your resident male columnist, I’ve also made some observations about different types of daters that deserve to be passed along. Consider this your road map for where you don’t want to go in your love life.

1. Rebound Guy
Knowing how bummed I’ve been since my ex Claudia left for Europe, my buddy tried to set me up with his “hot coworker.” Very kind of him, but I declined. With my heart stuck in international customs, there’s no way I could make a connection. Not that I wasn’t tempted. We men secretly hope we’ll never have to deal with our feelings and instead can “fix” our sadness with a new woman. Problem is, we’re always comparing her to the ex—how she is in bed, how her butt looks in jeans. Real mature stuff that you’d be wise to avoid by dating us after we’ve healed.


2. Disappearing Guy
Some seemingly normal guys have a bad habit of vanishing. Excuses like “work’s really busy” may be true, but there’s often something else going on. My old roommate tried to woo his new girlfriend while still dating his old one. I also know someone who told a woman he was single in New York, although he was married in Ohio. Both guys checked out for days at a time.

When you’re just starting to date, it’s not like you’re tracking a person’s every movement. Still, the giveaway is erratic contact—is he in touch every day and then suddenly MIA? Does he often cancel plans? Or does he suddenly want to meet up in an hour, after not calling all week? Beware. 5 secrets all guys keep from you!

3. Slick Guy
With his sporty car, high-tech cell phone and Swedish designer toothbrush, my college roommate managed to hide his insecurity behind hip stuff. He never let women get close for fear they’d find him out. So women wound up feeling rejected when he was the one who sucked.

My advice: If his life looks like a magazine spread, steer clear. Say what you will about the guy who has a painting of poker-playing dogs or a mountain of laundry, but I promise you this: He’s real.

8 things guys say they hate about women but secretly love.

4. Rude Guy
I’m amazed at what men get away with. A partial list of nasty moves I’ve witnessed: checking out the waitress, fiddling with a BlackBerry during dinner, asking the cute bartender for her number when his date is in the bathroom. If a man lets the door slam shut instead of opening it for you, make that all the closure you need.

5. Grabby Guy
Hands on thighs, stroking things that didn’t ask to be stroked, sexual innuendos when you barely know each other—he may try to explain these things with an “Oh, I’m so attracted to you I can’t help it” line. But no matter how smokin’ hot you are, he can help it. And if you’re not getting the respect you want early on, he probably won’t surprise you with it later.


6. Last Year’s Guy
Long nights and a fear of being single forever can make going back to an ex seem mighty attractive. I’ve been guilty of it twice, both during lonely times in the dead of winter. Recycling romance seemed far easier than the unknown, and it was...for the two months before we rediscovered exactly why we broke up in the first place. What’s the lesson here? Move forward, not back. And know that it’s better to be out there looking than stuck on a couch with some guy you’re just going to wind up dumping anyway. He might be happy, but you deserve more.

Monday, January 26, 2009

25 random things about me

something to do.. hehe!
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1) I can use the computer the whole day.
2) I love music. I dance, I sing in the shower =)
3) I don't have a talent but I'm a frustrated writer.
4) If I have the means, I will travel around the world with my best friend/s.
5) I am not a "showy" person.
6) I hate rejections, I really can't stand it.
7) I have Bipolar Disorder, my emotional episodes are intense or severe mood swings. You
can google it.
8) I find technology very interesting.
9) I believe that trust doesn’t have a second chance.
10) I love spicy food and fried chicken
11) I have countless friends but I still feel lonely at times.
12) I have a strong faith in God. He is my “Superfriend.”
13) I’m not good in numbers.
14) My comfy attire: Polo shirt, jeans, flip flops.
15) I hate summer.
16) I love it when it rains in the morning.
17) I am very fond of babies.
18) I look at things differently.
19) I am not a morning person
20) I forgive but I don’t forget.
21) I bully my favorite people; it’s my own way of “lambing”
22) I hate yellow.
23) I want to die young.
24) I miss my past… I reminisce a lot.
25) I am influential.

Saturday, January 24, 2009

Movies to watch this year

Underworld: Rise of the Lycans
January 23, 2009
The prequel story traces the origins of the centuries-old blood feud between the aristocratic vampires known as Death Dealers and their onetime slaves, the Lycans. In the Dark Ages, a young Lycan named Lucian (Sheen) emerges as a powerful leader who rallies the werewolves to rise up against Viktor (Nighy), the cruel vampire king who has enslaved them. Lucian is joined by his secret lover, Sonja (Mitra), in his battle against the Death Dealer army and his struggle for Lycan freedom.

Xmen Origins: Wolverine
May 1, 2009
Wolverine lives a mutant life, seeks revenge against Victor Creed (who will later become Sabertooth) for the death of his girlfriend, and ultimately ends up going through the mutant Weapon X program.

New Moon
November 20, 2009
Sequel to Twilight - In New Moon, Stephenie Meyer delivers another irresistible combination of romance and suspense with a supernatural twist. Passionate, riveting, and full of surprising twists and turns, this vampire love saga is well on its way to literary immortality.

Saturday, January 17, 2009

Alaalang sinunog kaninag umaga.

Nabasa ko sa bago kong planner na pag early 20s, ok lang daw talaga maging emotional ka.. kasi natural lang daw yun sa ganong ka-edaran. Edi ibig sabihin pala, normal pa tong nararamdaman ko?

Naglinis ako ng kwarto ko kahapon, para sa akin, yon na ang pinaka malupit kong paglinis. Hindi mashado makintab ang sahig, may mga naiwan pang alikabok sa 4 na sulok ng aking tulugan pero ang pakiramdam ko, anlaki ng pinagbago ng kwarto ko.

Tinapon ko na kasi ang mga letters na nasa shoebox. Limang malalaking shoebox yun na punong puno ng letters. Simula grade 5 hanggang 4th year college. Simula sa araw-araw na chikahan hanggang sa retreat letter, pati ang pamamaalam sa pagkakaibigan andon. Waaaaaaaaaah!

Matagal ko nang pinagiisipan kung ano ang gagawin ko sa mga yun. Malaki kasi ang nasakop niya sa cabinet ko. Ok lang naman kasi e! Pero minsan pumapasok sa isip ko na ilipat ng pwesto ang mga yon. Para sa akin kasi, basura man ang tingin ng nanay ko sa mga shoebox na yun, Importanteng dokumento naman ang tingin ko sakanila. Tuwing nabuburo kasi ako sa kwarto, nagbabasa ako ng isang letter. Natatawa ako kasi bata pa lang ako, ang mahadera ko na. ahahahaha!

Kaso, sa kasamaang palad, nagtagumpay ang nanay ko. hindi ko ito tinago sa bodega, hindi ko ito linigpit at binaon sa lupa, kundi, napilit niya akong itapon na lahat ng yon! Wala na. Wala na! nagsunog na ng basura yung kasambahay namin kanina. Grabe... hindi ko alam bakit ako nagkaganito. Para kasi sa mga ma-sentimentong tao na katulad ko, mahirap ipamigay ang bagay na binigay.. e lalo pa ang magtapon?! &*#%^@! pati pala yung laruan..... natapon ko din!!! NICE ONE KC!

Kung mayaman lang talaga ako, at may sarili akong bahay... papatayo ako ng "my personal museum". Nakalagay don ang lahat ng mga bagay na magpapa-alala sa akin ng lahat ng bagay. Tapos, sisiguraduhin kong nasa fire-proof container lahat ng iyon haha! Pero, sabi ko sa sarili ko, yung mga litrato na naka tambak sa kwarto ko, hinding-hindi ko yun itatapon. Kahit man lang sa picture diba.............................

Buti na lang talaga may internet. Kasi kahit papaano, nagtatagal ang mga pictures, audio & video records, at ang mga blogs. Sana naman, hindi tamaan ng kung anong virus ang mga websites na pinag iimbakan ko ng mga yon... (napa-isip kung posible..)

Sa susunod na magpatapon sa akin ulit ang nanay ko ng mga "treasured things" ko, hindi ko siya susundin! ililipat ko na lang yun sa kwarto niya. ahahahahaha!




Friday, January 09, 2009

What Kind of Girl Am I?


What kind of girl are you?
You Are a Party Girl! You are all about having fun - and you don't need to drink to have a good time
Sure, you've thrown back more than a few every so often
But getting totally stupid and wasted is not your style
You're the life of the party, by keeping everyone laughing and smiling
Fun quizzes, surveys & blog quizzes by Quibblo

PLEASE READ!! your computer might be infected by this virus.

Worm:Win32/Conficker.B

Also Known As:

TA08-297A (other)
CVE-2008-4250 (other)
VU827267 (other)
Win32/Conficker.A (CA)
Mal/Conficker-A (Sophos)
Trojan.Win32.Agent.bccs (Kaspersky)
W32.Downadup.B (Symantec)

Summary

Worm:Win32/Conficker.B is a worm that infects other computers across a network by exploiting a vulnerability in the Windows Server service (SVCHOST.EXE). If the vulnerability is successfully exploited, it could allow remote code execution when file sharing is enabled. It may also spread via removable drives and weak administrator passwords. It disables several important system services and security products.

Microsoft strongly recommends that users apply the update referred to in Security Bulletin MS08-067 immediately.

Microsoft also recommends that users ensure that their network passwords are strong to prevent this worm from spreading via weak administrator passwords. More information is available here.

Symptoms

System Changes

The following system changes may indicate the presence of this malware:

* The following services are disabled or fail to run:
Windows Update Service
Background Intelligent Transfer Service
Windows Defender
Windows Error Reporting Services

* Some accounts may be locked out due to the following registry modification, which may flood the network with connections:
HKLM\SYSTEM\CurrentControl
Set\Services\Tcpip\Parameters
"TcpNumConnections" = "0x00FFFFFE"

* Users may not be able to connect to websites or online services that contain the following strings:
virus
spyware
malware
rootkit
defender
microsoft
symantec
norton
mcafee
trendmicro
sophos
panda
etrust
networkassociates
computerassociates
f-secure
kaspersky
jotti
f-prot
nod32
eset
grisoft
drweb
centralcommand
ahnlab
esafe
avast
avira
quickheal
comodo
clamav
ewido
fortinet
gdata
hacksoft
hauri
ikarus
k7computing
norman
pctools
prevx
rising
securecomputing
sunbelt
emsisoft
arcabit
cpsecure
spamhaus
castlecops
threatexpert
wilderssecurity
windowsupdate

Sunday, January 04, 2009

hindi ako SURE

"Wala kang direksyon"

Isa ito sa pinaka tagos sa butong maririnig mo pag ang buhay mo ay wala talagang malinaw na patutunguhan. Minsan ko na itong nasabi sa iba pero hindi ko alam ang pakiramdam niya noong sinabi ko iyon sa kanya. Hindi ko alam na talaga palang mapapaisip ka kung totoo ang narinig mong sinabi sa iyo. Yun e kung nasa tama kang pag-iisip. (ahahahaha)

Wala akong kamalay-malay, hindi ako handa. Bigla akong sinabihan ng nanay ko kanina na wala daw direksyon ang buhay ko. Hindi ko agad ito nalasahan, hanggang sa unti-unti ko itong naramdaman. Hindi makatarungan, masakit, pero parang totoo.

Pilit kong kinalimutan ang sinabi sa akin ni mommy pero hindi ako nag tagumpay. Ngayon, napapaisip na naman ako. Hating gabi, naghahanap ako ng trabaho sa internet. Para lang akong tanga diba? Mabuti pa ang iba diyan... Hindi nakatapos pero manager. E ako, nag masteral pero walang trabaho. Ayos na ayos lang e. Talaga naman.... talaga naman........

Kahit ano pa man ang marinig ko, alam ko na hindi ako pagtataguan ng nanay ko. Ika nga niya, sa lahat ng tao, siya lang ang makakapag sabi sa akin lagi ng totoo. Edi ibig sabihin, totoo nga!! Thanks mom. (haha)

Sa katayuan ko ngayon, bigla akong natakot magisip ng 'long-term'. Hindi ako sigurado, wala akong kahit anong CLUE!! Kung baga, isang malaking SECRET na walang CLUE! Mas mainam pang malaman ko nang mamalasin ako kesa sa wala talaga akong alam. Juskopolord! Buti na lang intsik-intsikan ako, at sa Pebrero pa talaga ang pasok ng bagong taon. Ibig sabihin, kung malas ako, hindi ito kabilang sa taon ng 2009. (oo na..... wag ka nang makealam! pagbigyan mo na lang ak diba..)

Yun lang naman.... napaisip lang. next time ulit.




Friday, January 02, 2009

hasel sa masel

year of the Ox ngayon diba? dapat swerte ako! e jusko, pag pinaglalaruan ka nga naman ng panahon o' umagang-umaga bubulaga na agad ang malas sayo.

4 am na ko nakatulog kagabi, at dahil don, kaunti pa lang ang byahe ng tulog ko pagpatak ng 6 am. pero dahil malas ako, may impaktang tawag ng tawag sa SUN ko para makipag text at call mate. talaga namang hindi niya ko tinantanan!!! hanggang hindi niya ko magising. pwes, natupad ang kanyang maitim na balak at nagising nga ako...

napaka sama at ubod sa sama ng gising ko tuloy. ika nga nila, lokohin na ang lasing... wag lang ang tulog at ang bagong gising.. samakatuwid, dinaig ko pa ang namatayan sa sama ng loob pag dilat ko at dinaig ko pa ang nabuhusan ng kumukulong tubig sa init ng ulo ko.

pinagbuntungan ko tuloy ng galit ang laptop ko dahil pakiramdam ko, ang laptop ko lang ang dadamay sa akin sa ganitong katayuan. sa sobrang init ng ulo ko... ang ending? hulaan niyo......



nasira ko ang laptop ko!!! juskopolord!!! patawarin!!!


nagka leche-leche ang umaga ko. 7 am pa lang at pakiramdam ko, 2 araw na akong nagdadalamhati sa problema ko. rineformat ko tuloy ng di oras ang laptop ko.

nakuuuuuu!!!!! subukan lang ulit akong guluhin ng bwiset na ''caller'' na un sa SUN ko at makakatikim siya ng sagad sa butong mura ko ng BONGGANG-BONGGA hanggang sa mamatay siya!!!!

kung bakit naman kasi, may mga taong walang magawa at mag ''rarandom dial'' para lang makahanap ng text/call mate e. ganon na ba talaga ang epekto ng boredom?!?! aba naman teka!! kung wala kang magawa sa buhay mo, pakamatay ka na lang kesa sa mambulabog ka ng isang insomniac na nagpupumilit matulog na katulad ko.. diba?

yun lang.....

Thursday, January 01, 2009

FOR SALE: 2 bedroom condo unit, Ready for Occupancy

2 Bedroom (46.8 sqm)
4.2million (payment terms)
TURN OVER: Jan-March 2009

MESSAGE ME IF INTERESTED. 09272473581/kathreenclaireco@yahoo.com

kaguluhan ng isang "techy"

Pagtapos kong ipagpalit ang iPod ko sa ZUNE... ganito ang mapapala ko!! this aint right!!


Di ko inaakala na pati mp3 player pwedeng magloko sabay-sabay. Akala ko para lang ito sa ibang gadgets gaya ng computer o kaya cellphone.. pati mp3 player pala hindi pinatawad.

Pag minamalas nga naman, talagang New Year pa sumakto ang ganitong ka echosan! Kung kailan ko gusto mag soundtrip, dun naman biglang nagloko ang Zune. Sabi sa nabasa kong article, pinaliwanag ng Microsoft kung bakit may Z2K (http://latimesblogs.latimes.com/technology/2008/12/microsoft-to-zu.html) kagabi. Dahil leap year ang 2008, nanibago daw ang Zune sa bilang ng araw. At dahil dito, tumigil ang mundo ng Zune ng New Year. NICE NOH!!

Sabi ko nga sa isa kong kaibigan, kung gaano ka hi-tech ang gadget, ganon din ka hi-tech ang sasabutahe dito. May nalalaman pang leap year-related ang nangyari. Biruin mo!!

Sana lang gumawa ang Microsoft ng maayos na firmware para hindi na ito maulit. Kasi kung hindi, mangyayari at mangyayari ang ganitong ka-echosan tuwing leap year. Kahit pa sabihin ng Microsoft na pag nangyari ito, papalipasin lang naman ng isang araw tapos aayos na ulit ang Zune mo. Kung baga, kailangan lang maintindihan namin (Zune users) na napaka-simple lang naman ang solusyon sa Z2K kaya wag na kami mag-inarte! E hindi naman sa nag-iinarte diba, natural aakalahin kong nasira na nang tuluyan ang player ko sa walang kasiguraduhang dahilan..

Sana lang talaga... Naku Microsoft! Andaming tao ang dumedepende sa inyo kaya pwede lang.... "AYUSIN NIYO BUHAY NIYO!!" ahahahahaha!