Wednesday, November 10, 2004

Linger

I had all those stories, events and circumstances in my life. Memories that made my life sensible. Some of these are stuck in my head while some are not. These were the ones that made me smile once in a while every time I get to reminisce a li’l bit. Some memories are too good that linger in my head over and over again. But bad memories are too disgusting that just been there forever. When you’re dying because of boredom and you sudden recall those events then you smile because of the nice incident that you’ve had. Sometimes when you laughed out of nowhere because you remembered something funny. Or even cry in the most ironic way because you’ve remembered something sad.

Do you still remember back then when your mother wipes your tears every time you have tantrums? Or whenever you father brings you “pasalubong” just to get rid of your “kakulitan”? Every time your elder Kuya gives you cotton candy and protect you from the bullies. How does it feel every time you recall all those things? How does it feel that these things lingered in you since then? These things are too nice to be remembered. You don’t have to be so corny about it, you just have to make it linger.

How does it feel every time you recall the most painful break-up that you’ve had with your stupid boyfriend? You’re young, he’s stupid. He’s an asshole, you’re dumb. When you remember that last words he said and cursed you in your stupid face, when you cried out loud but he doesn’t love you anymore? Does it make you feel somber? Well, there’s nothing wrong about it. Its just too freaking painful but you have nothing to do with it. You just have to make it linger.

Every time you recall the first time you got grounded. You failed your Math subject. It’s too ordinary but it’s too memorable. When you miss your friends so bad but you cannot see them because your mom is too strict. You just laugh at it because it was your first time. Well, that’s life and you just have to make it linger.

When you smiled while walking because you remembered the day that your crush screamed your name and you’ve thought that it was you but it was somebody else’s name. You were to shy and tried to hide from him over and over again. You were too shameful every time you reminisce about it. It’s mushy but you just have to make it linger.

The things that set you mood every minute, the things that are too memorable and you can’t forget about it...

These are the things, events, incidents... circumstances that remained forever. You didn’t force it. It just did,

And you just have to make it linger


4 comments:

Benigs said...

bah... memories that linger in our minds... it's okay when you have nothing but good memories to remember but when you had bad experiences, you just want to forget about them. but sadly, the bad memories are the ones that linger the longest. you replay them over and over in your mind until you can understand why that bad thing happened. as for good memories, you just want to hold on to them and let them linger in your mind forever because they're good! i wish we only have good memories lingering in our minds...

goksmeister said...

do you have to? do you have to make it linger?!
-the cranberries

Kalowee said...

its nice to remember things that happened in the past once in a while but it is not healthy to live in it, the past that is. true that most of the time that the ones that linger the longest are memories that hurts us the most. maybe because it is healthy to remember it just as long as u learn from it right?!
un lng .. :)

cAtHy! said...

Do you still remember back then when your mother wipes your tears every time you have tantrums? Or whenever you father brings you “pasalubong” just to get rid of your “kakulitan”? Every time your elder Kuya gives you cotton candy and protect you from the bullies. How does it feel every time you recall all those things? How does it feel that these things lingered in you since then? These things are too nice to be remembered.

you know never ko narealized yan..soobrang naiyak lang ako nung nasaba ko tong part na toh..='(

wala lang..