being Twenty something......

They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis."
It is when you
stop going along with the crowd and
start realizing
that there are many things about
yourself that you
didn't know and may not like.

You start feeling insecure and wonder
where you will
be in a year or two, but then get
scared because you
barely know where you are now. You
start realizing
that people are selfish and that,
maybe, those
friends that you thought you were so
close to aren't
exactly the greatest people you have
ever met, and the
people you have lost touch with are
some of the most
important ones.

What you don't recognize is that they
are realizing
that too, and aren't really cold,
catty, mean or
insincere, but that they are as
confused as you. You
look at your job... and it is not even
close to what
you thought you would be doing, or
maybe you are
looking for a job and realizing that
you are going to
have to start at the bottom and that
scares you.

Your opinions have gotten stronger. You
see what
others are doing and find yourself
judging more than
usual because suddenly you realize that
you have
certain boundaries in your life and are
constantly
adding things to your list of what is
acceptable and
what isn't. One minute, you are
insecure and then the
next, secure. You laugh and cry with
the greatest
force of your life. You feel alone and
scared and
confused.

Suddenly, change is the enemy and you
try and cling on
to the past with dear life, but soon
realize that the
past is drifting further and further
away, and there
is nothing to do but stay where you are
or move
forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder
how someone you
loved could do such damage to you. Or
you lie in bed
and wonder why you can't meet anyone
decent enough
that you want to get to know better. Or
maybe you love
someone but love someone else too and
cannot figure
out why you are doing this because you
know that you
aren't a bad person.

One night stands and random hook ups
start to look
cheap. Getting wasted and acting like
an idiot starts
to look pathetic. You go through the
same emotions and
questions over and over, and talk with
your friends
about the same topics because you
cannot seem to make
a decision.

You worry about loans, money, the
future and making a
life for yourself... and while winning
the race would
be great, right now you'd just like to
be a contender!

What you may not realize is that
everyone reading this
relates to it. We are in our best of
times and our
worst of times, trying as hard as we
can to figure
this whole thing out.